Posted by
Peter Madsen
• 04.07.11 12:25 pm


MARY CATHERINE, 25, EAST VILLAGE

MARY CATHERINE, 25, EAST VILLAGE

WORD ON THE STREET: Hey Mary! How are you and Mark doing? I talked to both of you about two months ago.

MARY: Wow, hey. You remembered my name. Yeah, we’re alright. We actually started dating right around then. We first saw each other at a Starbucks — we met through a mutual friend — and we were immediately attracted to each other. We later talked about how it was a mutual feeling when we first locked eyes.

Oh yeah? What first struck you about him?

Ha ha! Actually it was his nose — he has a very Italian nose. He’s really insecure about it but I fucking love noses. [Laughs.] Especially that one.

So how did you and Mark start talking?

Well, he adored me. That’s probably what kept me coming back. He was just such a sweetheart; very affectionate.

Did you and Mark go do something your first night?

No, but we would see each other here and there. Mark later told me he would look for me every day, you know,  trying to purposefully bump into me. He was always the same — flirtatious, but in the good way, and not in the obnoxious way, which I get all the time and totally turns me off. The way he did it was just really sweet.

What was Mark’s approach?

Well, he would listen to me in conversation, like just like a friend, but he would give me compliments, good ones, so that I knew he was paying attention to who I am, as opposed to just what my face looks like, or my tits. He said things that genuinely led me to believe that he was beginning to see who I was — and genuinely liked who I was. That’s appreciated.

What’s the nicest thing he ever said to you?

Hmm… I can’t think of it right away. We’ve been fighting so much, lately. He’s actually the shittiest boyfriend ever. What I’m describing is how he was when he first drew me in.

When did things get rocky?

When I realized Mark’s not capable and / or willing to do the things for me that I had done for him. For instance… there are many different ways to show love and affection, right? … Like thinking of that person when they’re not there. If you walk by a florist and you see white roses — and you know those are her favorite — you buy her the white roses. Or, you’re in a record store and you see the favorite album she lost — you buy her the album. Things like that. I had done some things like that for him, and then the time came where he had the opportunity to do something like that for me and it just never happened…. Or… let’s be real… I had bought him dope several times, because he doesn’t make money as easily as me. Then there was the time I didn’t have money, and he had $30, and instead of getting me one bag and him two, he got himself three and me none. There were other things, like I would buy him a gigantic thing called Tilt in the morning, and he wouldn’t even want to give me a few sips. He would just grunt and complain. He’s very selfish and it’s becoming more and more frequent. I’m just realizing that’s who he is. He hid it well, at first.

That sounds frustrating.

Yeah, and he lies about things. He’s just very consumed by taking care of his needs and doesn’t seem concerned with being with someone else in the way a relationship requires.

Where’s Mark right now?

Where is Mark right now? Probably passed out on a park bench or crashing into a wall. I don’t know; he’s inebriated wherever he is.

Do you like him inebriated?

Nooo, he’s terribly obnoxious. But, then again, when he’s completely straight in the morning, he’s miserable. But then, in the middle of the day before it’s too crazy, he’s normal. You know, he’s not fucked up to the point where he’s stumbling on his words and being boisterous. He’s straight enough to have a civilized conversation. And be sweet.

He’s at his best in the afternoon.

Well, it all depends on how much money he makes…. I think sometimes it’s my fault. I’d never had a relationship on the street before. Maybe my expectations are too high — that’s what Mark tells me — and that I’m expecting too much from him. What I keep telling him is all I expect is decency, to be honest, to think of me when I’m not there, to be where he says he’s going to be. And to not be so selfish. There’s no reason to treat me that way… but he’s so conditioned by what he’s been through on the street that he just treats everyone in this way — as if it’s him against the world.

I think that’s a common theme among young men.

Yeah, but I think you should put that aside when you meet someone you’ve supposedly fallen in love with. He tells me he “loves” me all the time.

You’ve been together two months and you’re using the L-word.

Yeah, that started about a month ago or so. I said it first. I was the one to say, you know what, how about we just be boyfriend and girlfriend and be committed. You don’t shit on me and I won’t shit on you, and let’s take it from there. I don’t remember exactly when I told Mark I loved him, but he had probably just done something sweet.

What’s something sweet he does?

OK, he does do sweet things all the time. He takes my shoes off every night and massages them. Every night. And he hugs me and holds me and touches me. Mark is very physically affectionate.

You said before he’s an angel when he sleeps.

Yes! That’s when it’s the most peaceful and beautiful, when we’re falling asleep and lying in bed. It’s just pure affection and innocence, you know? Nobody’s looking for anything, nobody’s being selfish. We’re relaxed, calm, and we’re in the moment.

Is the sex good?

It’s very good! Maybe that’s what’s keeping me going. He’s surprisingly good in bed. I can tell if a man is going to be good with me in bed, just by the way he touches me at first. My reaction to Mark’s first touch was: This is how I like to be touched.

Did you guys do anything special for Valentine’s Day?

I was alone on Valentine’s Day. We weren’t really together-together on that day. Actually, my valentine was an overdose.

Oh, fuck.

Yeah, I was on cocaine and heroin. My dealer gave me a gift by giving me $70-worth of coke when I had only bought $40. I figured I would just push this as far as it will go. I put it all in the cooker at once and shot it and I had a seizure.

That sounds painful.

I actually came out of it feeling very good and wanting to do it again. Nobody else wanted me to do it again, though. They took care of me right there — the seizure didn’t last long. Mark wasn’t there that night — I was hanging with my dealer and a couple other girls.

What was Mark’s reaction?

He told me shooting cocaine was no good and he asked me to stop because it’s crazy or stupid. You know, the general caring reaction.

Are you going to miss sleeping next to Mark tonight? Or do you think you’ll find him?

Well, we agreed to meet up at 10 o’clock on St. Mark’s and Second Avenue, and if he’s not, he’s in big trouble.

Do you think you guys are going to work it out?

I totally see us having a future — if we left New York and/or just generally got off the drugs and tried to do the right thing and live a good life — the way we were meant to… or the way that would be most conducive to our happiness.

Why can’t you keep the love and the drugs?

Because they make people someone they’re not, and Mark is not a selfish junkie who lies; Mark has become that because of the life he needs to live to maintain the drug usage.

How do you know that about Mark if you’ve only known him to be a junkie?

Everyone has their light and everyone has their darkness, and his light shines through occasionally when the drugs aren’t as prevalent. The drugs have kind of taken over right now, but it doesn’t mean he has to be that way the rest of his life.

You said you were in jail recently. Mark must have been worried.

Oh, yes, he was, but not at first. We had had an argument, because he lied to me when he said he didn’t get any bags out of copping for someone when he actually did. I yelled at him, walked away and I got arrested just a few hours later. He had assumed I had just left town and that he meant nothing to me and he was pissed.

Why did you get arrested?

I was inside one of my dealers’ houses… narcotics had been watching him and I didn’t know it. So my dealer was expecting his dealer to show up at any moment, and when there was a knock at the door he didn’t look in the peephole and he opened the door wide open. Behind him sitting on the carpet was me and two other ladies shooting dope and coke — that was enough for the cops. Before I knew it, we were all in handcuffs. I would have been released the next day, but someone messed up on my paperwork — which happens all the time with people who don’t have expensive lawyers — and I got stuck in Riker’s Island for 20 days on a $1 bail. Once Mark found out what happened he couldn’t have even gone to pay it because I was under a fake name. I was so dope-sick you wouldn’t believe it. I had the worst vomiting, diarrhea and disgusting aching body for seven days until I finally got medicated with methadone. But that’s the deal you make with Satan when you start shooting dope — you have to live through that suffering. So my dealer got released, paid our bail and ran up to Mark and told him where I was. Mark felt so awful because he had been angry.

Was it was a happy reunion?

Oh, my god. When I first saw him he looked so happy. He jumped on me and kissed me in front of everybody, all the street kids. I hadn’t made someone light up like that in a long time.

Is there anything else you’d like to say about Mark?

[Sighs.] That I love him, even though he’s not perfect.

-PETER MADSEN

PS. Word on the Street has become nearly unnavigable — and totally inaccessible to me — just yesterday. There’s this stretch of code or something on the top of my homepage that has appeared. My website’s back-end is WordPress. Does anybody know what to do? If so, please contact me at pfmadsen@gmail.com.


Comments
  1. pony says:

    wow that was really sad.

  2. madge says:

    fascinating. and sad. i really like this, nice job.

  3. archie says:

    very interesting…great stuff

  4. Anonymous says:

    sad, yet a hell of a lot better than most marriages.

  5. blaahus poopus says:

    oy.

  6. nacirema says:

    wow. I wasn’t even CLOSE to getting through that.

  7. Adolf Hitler says:

    Glad to see there’s still idiots populating the Lower East Side. Kinda warms the heart.

  8. pooblious says:

    and yet many americans are opposed to abortion.

    …oh, i forgot, junkie dudes can’t get it up. never mind!

  9. EdFister says:

    This was good. Good your shit together though Mark. The street is balls. You two should be able to do better. Save your dope money for a month and move to Detroit. I hear they are practically giving away houses there.

    Start a new life away from the shit. Grow some plants and stuff.

  10. Anonymous says:

    Sad, yes. But those two would pull a home invasion on Mother Theresa if they were dope-sick. Junkie scum like that are never happy, and think only of themselves. The only reason Mary and Mark “love” each other is that they’re both on dope. If one of them gets clean, they’ll never speak again.

  11. wtf says:

    That got depressing fast.

  12. EdFister says:

    Get*

    And yeah, Anon is right. Of course people love each other after two months on heroin. Fuck, when I was on heroin (only for a week, I’m not that hardcore) in Phnom Phen I’m pretty sure I told this bar girl I loved her. Luckily my dick was like a singapore noodle otherwise I might of hit that shit.

  13. Doye says:

    Quit shooting up dummy!

  14. Tool says:

    Is she still wondering what her special purpose is and stealing my oxygen?!

  15. anonymous says:

    that dude looks 45.

  16. pfft says:

    this makes me feel better about myself

  17. dryrub says:

    mark is the harshest looking 25 year old I’ve ever seen
    it’s like she shot so much junk he double aged himself

  18. d-bo says:

    take 75 dollars worth.

  19. Elliott Smith says:

    Any guesses as to how this one’s gonna end?

  20. holy fuck says:

    Fuck new york

  21. New Damage says:

    She is hot but junkie chicks are still junkies and junkies are worthless.

  22. Anonymous says:

    “All I expect is decency, to be honest, to think of me when I’m not there, to be where he says he’s going to be. And to not be so selfish.”

    Secret hint: look for the above in guys who aren’t junkies.

  23. blipsqueak says:

    this is sad. they are both really cute and young. Doing all that hard shit is gonna give them a face like David johanssen from the nydolls. nobody wants a craggy face.

  24. Drippy dog Dix and cum bubbles or something says:

    I know a lot of junkies who got better. They can do it, but it better be soon. Otherwise they’ll end up like the ones who didn’t :(

  25. Gnarles in Charge says:

    Wish I had someone to massage my shoes every night.

  26. Jeezus says:

    Codependency is so romantic.

  27. Donut says:

    “He takes my shoes off every night and massages them.”

    Creepy!

  28. josh froth says:

    There are eight million stories in the Naked City; this has been one of them.

  29. kokehead says:

    I would like to hear one positive junkie story. To deny that there aren’t any is silly. There are people who are addicted and have regular lives, and never do horrible shit, and are fairly healthy. Of course no one wants to hear about that.

  30. Shitastic says:

    I shoot dope everyday, i have a 9 to 5 job i never miss and am well appreciated by my coworkers, i live in a nice appartment with my 2 cats…. I have friends… a social life… a boyfriend and a university degree…. how about that?

  31. Creepy McCreeperson says:

    sucks she is a junkie, because she is pretty cute.

  32. yeah but says:

    -shitastic- as long as your pay increases with your tolerance you should be ok…but then how likely is that…?
    it’ll end in tears.

  33. kokehead says:

    Shitastic,
    It sounded believable until you said social life. People who use on a regular basis wouldn’t even use that term, let alone have one, to speak of.

    yeah but,
    junkies who survive, who make it work, do not increase their usage. many a doctor has maintained a mild habit throughout his or her career, etc.
    it’ll end in tears if the supply is cut, then it’s off to the methadone clinic, where again one finds what will “hold them”

  34. (not published or required) says:

    that was beautiful

  35. popfop says:

    Cute elf.

  36. Turd Ferguson says:

    Wow, drug addicts are really into themselves….

  37. amusement engineer says:

    Wow, i did not know that. All of them?

  38. Tiny Bubbles says:

    Class acts, I tell ya. Class acts through and through.

  39. iwontslowdown says:

    “Probably passed out on a park bench or crashing into a wall. I don’t know; he’s inebriated wherever he is.” – an annoying bitch

  40. amusement engineer says:

    I’m gonna make a brand new start of it / In old New York

  41. mate says:

    drugz are kool

  42. booty says:

    yikes

  43. Shitastic says:

    You believe who you want to believe. I have a life… not a great one but still. And I know I’m not the only one in my situation….but it’s understandable why we tend to never hear from people like us… then it would make drugs less evil. Which they arent.

  44. kokehead says:

    no argument there..
    drugs are not evil. what is evil is the war on drugs..

  45. josh froth says:

    @Shitastic
    your first post sounds like you have a great life, but in your in your 2nd post you say it’s “not great”
    so what is it love?

  46. Shitastic says:

    Well it’s complicated. Could write a fucking book on the subject but its been done sooooo many times. I mean it’s liveable but not fantastic for many reasons but then a lot of people can’t say their lifes are fantastic. Anyways this could go on forever. My point is that whatever what people say junkies arent always homeless panhandlers with scabs all over their face and bad skin.

  47. kokehead says:

    Agreed.

  48. […] WORD ON THE STREET: Mark! Hey man, I’ve been looking for you. How’ve you been? I want to talk to you to about Mary. […]

  49. timothy ryan mcsweeney says:

    fuck you worthless piece of shit trolls thats my fucking sister your talking about she is intellegent, beautiful and has the potential do anything she wanted. [adolf hilter] next time u call someone an idiot how bout changing that name you ignorant fuck, your mother should be crucified for giving birth to such filth next up poobilious i dont know or care your stnding on abortions but seeing how your mother tried to throw you in the garbage with the rest of the trash as a child but you kept finding your way back home im sure SHE is opposed to it. okay,
    and yes [PFFFT] im sure it does make you feel better about your worthless existence maybe soon you will have enough self-esteem to replace all the mirrors in your house
    and face again won’t that be something. and [IWONTSLOWDOWN] hmmmm…. you know what how about you just write your life story so i dont have to waste time writing on you.

    and so every fucking troll on here who thinks this is depressing your damn fucking right it is, especially to her family seeing how this is the first time i’ve seen her fucking face in years so u take a good look mother fuckers take a deep breath and say ” by the grace of god, there goes I” life certain hope for the best plan for the worst.

  50. will says:

    i knew mary catherine when she lived in florida, she is a sweet beautiful person and i really wish someone could reach her with help.

  51. marlon 62 says:

    will you marry me? i know i can save you … yeah right.

  52. tdrumz says:

    I know Mary very well,in present day 2013. She is no longer using heroin. Mark is. He physically abuses her,runs around with other chicks,steals from her and he’s such a classic sociopath that he says “the right things” to Mary to keep her from breaking it off totally. She has no respect for Mark. Mary is one of the smartest,most thoughtful,inquisitive,beautiful people I’ve ever met. Mark is a spoiled,entitled rich kid from Long Island. He’s lower than the shit that accumulates in the gutter after a pack of pregnant dogs shit out their afterbirth and diarrhea in it. He needs to be shown what “real” street life and pain is about. Mary is leagues above Mark in every aspect of human life. He is entirely the reason that she has remained homeless since 2011. Fuck you Mark. You’re shit,you know it and if there’s ANY justice in life,you’ll be chained to a radiator with a Narcan drip in your arm,pissing,shitting and Puking yourself(hopefully) to death. You really fucked up. Stick to being a loser,and destroying yourself. Leave everyone else alone,especially Mary. Mary,you’re strong. You tried to be true and loving,and all you got was lies,pain,sorrow,stress and lost years. It’s not your fault.


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